Ealain

Note: Im typing this from my phone since work is dead. Excuse any missing letters or punctuation

Have you ever met someone that youve never ever met before but you feel like you know them? And you rack your brain for a week straight and you know you havent known them in the past but you still feel like you did?

Have you ever had so much in common with someone that it feels as though you are two parts of a whole? Have you been able to finish each others’ sentences from day one?

Have you ever watched everything you knew (or thought you knew) of relationships go down the drain because you meet someone and your heart grows day by day as if limitless?

Have you ever had feelings for someone surpass all past feelings for someone in a short period of time but have it feel like no rush, like it was just that natural?

Have you ever had feelings for someone develop (though that word isnt quite right because it was as though those feelings have always been there) so quickly that things come up so fast (but again, naturally) when these things are not usually broached or done for a longer period of time?

And then have that person understand completely and feel the exact same way?

I close my eyes and I smile
Knowing that everything is alright
To the core
So close that door
Is this happening?

My breath is on your hair
I’m unaware
That you opened the blinds and let the city in
God, you held my hand
And we stand
Just taking in everything.

And I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we’re trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony.
We’re both flying away.

So we talked about moms and dads
About family pasts
Just getting to know where we came from
Our hearts were on display
For all to see
I can’t believe this is happening to me

And I raised my hand as if to show you that I was yours
That I was so yours for the taking
I’m so yours for the taking
That’s when I felt the wind pick up
I grabbed the rail while choking up
These words to say and then you kissed me…

I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we’re trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony…
We’re both flying away.

And I’ll try to sleep
To keep you in my dreams
’til I can bring you home with me
I’ll try to sleep
And when I do I’ll keep you in my… dreams

I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we’re trying so hard not to fall asleep
So here we are
On this 18th floor balcony, yeah

I knew it from the start
My arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
No, we’re not going to sleep sleep

Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony and we’re both..
Flying away

You’re right; it does fit perfectly. Especially when listening to the song itself, not just lyrics. Beautiful.

I was going to blog about the reasoning behind why I left Josh. I know it came as a suprise to a lot of you because I kept it private. But if you don’t believe me that it has been going bad for a while, ask Shadow. Let’s just say that he stopped caring about me, thinking I’d just be there for him forever whenever he needed me and stay out of the way when he didn’t. Since we broke up, I’ve found a lot of other things that he kept hidden from me, lying because he knew I would leave him. But that’s done and over. I’m out of it and just that fact makes me happy.

What else makes me happy?

Oh. My. Gosh. This guy is absolutely amazing.

I knew him for a week or so before I left Josh. We really were just friends (despite what Josh & Co. think) before then, though I could see that he was something special. So, after I became single, we went out on a date to see how it would go.

Oh. My. Gosh. This guy is absolutely amazing.

And everyone here knows I don’t normally talk like that. When I’m with him, I can’t stop smiling and laughing. He makes me feel so natural and open and myself. There’s no holding back with him; he wants to know me for who I am and I can’t help but want to know him for who he is. No matter what, he gets me. We’ve had tons of endless chats on IM, text messages back and forth, and three dates in as many days.

And it doesn’t go away. Even when he’s not here, I feel like I’m floating. Thursday (our first date) was the six year anniversary of my brother’s death. Friday (our second date) would have been my mom’s 55th birthday. This is the first year that I haven’t cried. I feel like I’m eleven years old again: absolutely and completely happy and at peace.

And when we touch it’s electric. Even the most simple things like his hand resting lightly on my back. Wow. That’s the only word to describe it.

Wow.