Ealain

Around this time of year I try to ignore the commercials, the signs in stores, the endless emails from Kodak Gallery telling me that I can get free shipping on my Mother’s Day gifts, and my dad’s pressure to get my stepmom a card (seriously, can’t there just be a stepmother’s day because there really IS a difference). I do this for the simple reason that I don’t want to break down and cry. I do this because I don’t have my mother anymore. But in our materialistic society, the only time you can ignore it is when you have a mother and you take her for granted, like I did for 16 years. This year in November will mark 5 years without her.

Today I’ve been scanning a lot of her old photos to add to Skyefairy gradually over the coming months (69 photos, adding a few at a time sporadically when submissions are slow). I don’t know why but a flashback came to me. I was fifteen and we had just gotten the internet. I found that you could add a profile to your AOL and I was asking her the questions to fill in hers. I came across the “Likes” box. What do you like? Like hobbies and interests? I asked her.

The first thing she said was photography. Really? I asked. Looking at her two huge photo albums full of photos (more than 69; I only scanned my favorites) and the big box of non-albumed photos, it’s suprising that I wouldn’t know that about her. She must have taken pictures constantly in the years before I was born. Now I wonder why she stopped.

Now that she’s gone, I wonder what else I don’t know about her. We never entered that stage in a mother-daughter relationship (that we’d probably be coming to about now) where we share things on a more friend-like basis. I know her as a mother but I don’t know her as a person.

So, this mother’s day, do me a favor and sit down with your mom. Talk. Tell her what your favorite things are, ask her about hers. Ask her what she liked when she was your age, what she wanted to grow up to be. Get to know who she is as a person and cherish her; don’t take her for granted. You never know when you won’t have her anymore.

*Today isn’t Mother’s Day. It’s May 11.

I took my last exam today.

I have eleven days off before I start summer classes. 5 of them are taken up with stuff-not-for-me. So that leaves 6 days to myself.

My to-do:

1. Write Erica’s review.
2. Write FTP tutorial.
3. Finish Alice drawing.
4. Scan my mom’s photobooks (that I’ve been putting off for 2 years. No exaggeration).
5. Code my portfolio, get it up and running. Extra money ftw.
6. Other stuffage for SF redesign.
7. RELAX and DE-STRESS.

Coldplay is giving away a free download of their song Violet Hill for this week only. It’s pretty cool. At first listen it wasn’t my favorite but now I’m falling for it. Up there among my favorites (God Put A Smile & Rush of Blood).

Was a long and dark December
From the rooftops I remember
There was snow
White snow

Clearly I remember
From the windows they were watching
While we froze down below

When the future’s architectured
By a carnival of idiots on show
You’d better lie low

If you love me
Won’t you let me know?

Was a long and dark December
When the banks became cathedrals
And the fog
Became God

Priests clutched onto bibles
Hollowed out to fit their rifles
And the cross was held aloft

Bury me in armor
When I’m dead and hit the ground
My love’s like _____*
But I’m froze

If you love me
Won’t you let me know?

I don’t wanna be a soldier
the captain of some stinkin ship
would stow far below

So, If you love me
Why’d you let me go?

I took my love down to Violet Hill
There we sat in the snow.
All that time she was silent still.

So, If you love me
Won’t you let me know?
So, If you love me
Won’t you let me know?

You can download a free copy at Coldplay.com/Song.html this week only. :)

*Can’t understand that word; anyone else catch what he said?

This is a music meme, stolen from Aelyn who stole it from Tammy.

I’ve always hated these damn things because well, what’s the point and well, wouldn’t you rather insert songs you really felt fit? But I’m bored and blah and figured it’d give me something to do. And now I’ll know how stupid it really is and won’t have to wonder anymore. (I’m moody for some reason). Rules:

1. Copy and paste the entire thing, but remove the music titles.
2. Open your music player, add all your music files.
3. Play your playlist at random and label each song as it comes.

» If someone says “is this okay?” you say,
Men In Black - Sasser Highpoint me and my cousin’s “band” (home recording ftw); one of the songs we covered was Men In Black by Will Smith. Skye rapping; do you expect THAT?

» How would you describe yourself?
Lies - Evanescence. Yes, whatever you’ve heard, it’s all lies. LIES I tell you, LIES.

» What do you like in a guy/girl?
The World Spins Madly On - The Weepies

» How do you feel today?
Check Yes Juliet - We The Kings

» What is your life’s purpose?
As Lovers Go - Dashboard Confessional *sings* I’m not foolin’, this feelin’ is real

» What is your motto?
U + Ur Hand - Pink *sings* I’m not here for your entertainment / You don’t really wanna mess with me tonight / Just stop and take a second / I was fine before you walked into my life

» What do your friends think of you?
Promises - Savage Garden

» What do you think of your parents?
Who’s Cheatin’ Who - Alan Jackson hahahahahahahaha omg

» What do you think about very often?
This Time - Vanessa Carlton

» What is 2 + 2?
Power of Love - Sailor Moon why is this on my ipod?

» What do you think of your best friend?
Tainted Love - Soft Cell o_O

» What do you think of the person you like?
Haunted [Live] - Evanescence So, Josh is a vampyre now?… hmm. Now I know why he writes those stories…

» What is your life story?
All My Lovin’ - The Beatles

» What do you want to be when you grow up?
Even Angels Fall - Jessica Riddle

» What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Better Days - Goo Goo Dolls

» What will you dance to at your wedding?
That’s When I’ll Stop Lovin’ You - N*Sync

» What will they play at your funeral?
Larger Than Life - Sasser Highpoint My cousin and I’s cover of the Backstreet Boys :)

» What is your hobby/interest?
I Feel The Earth Move - Mandy Moore

» What is your biggest fear?
Come Clean - Eisley *sings* why do you want to fall to pieces

» What is your biggest secret?
Here It Goes - Jimmy Eat World

» What do you think of your friends?
Goodbye, Apathy - One Republic

» What will you post this as?
Better Than Me - Hinder

Right, and I tag whoever thinks that they can do better than me. Or, just anyone who wants to do this.